Thursday, February 19, 2009

Dan Sebenarnya...

cant stop humming this... i really loves it!

Yuna-Dan Sebenarnya

as the story goes...

oh bulan
jangan layan diriku lagi
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
kau bersama yg lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
telah menular dalam diri
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air
adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku

enjoy peeps...

Friday, February 13, 2009

P.S. I Love You

i never read Cecelia Ahern series of books before. having watched p.s i love you, it attracts me to read the book. well, have to admit that the movies does x justify how really good the book was. for someone who just lost the loved ones i can really relates to this book. and kudos to the cast of the movie who really moved me emotionally.

it makes me appreciate the life and the people around me even more. i learned how to adjust and adapting that my beloved papa is no longer here in this world. but i do knows for sure, there's more new chapter in my life that papa wants me to succeed in it. its a fact thats he's no longer here, but deep down i knows he's always have a special place in this very heart of my own. i know he's been praying that me and my family will survive and go through this life well without him being there.

to papa, you are always the pillar of my strength, im always the small gurl who admired you and who always look up on you. i adore u papa. thank you for a wonderful life and experience that you gave me. it's priceless... i wish u rest peacefully in Jannah. I know Pa that you are in good hands, the Almighty loves you more than i do.

P.S I Love You Pa, I will always will, I Will always do...

Sunday, February 8, 2009

im soooooo due for anor holiday.

it's already feb. til now im x able to r have any breakaway, not even able to plan one. sedih! since i decided to stay home and try to breed, this actually has limit me from planning any vacation. arggh!!!!!! how i wish i can do watever i wanna do without worrying about losing vitamin "c". :( usually in the beginning of the year im all set for my coming trips. like last year, as early as Jan, im already on my way to jakarta then bandung then jakarta again. and i dunt have to wait dat much longer cause by april, im back in bandung. then mid yr, bangkok then end of yr flew to s'pore. arghhhhh.. i missed this abilities to plan my own trip. im sooooooo hopeless now. :(

i wanna go bali again.. i wanna go redang. then to london-durham-dublin-italy in june.. mampukah i?????? i dunt think hubby wud actually entertain me on this matter. mana nak cark duit xtra ni? shud bake more n snaps more photos to materialized all this. the Almighty, i know that ur listening and i know i have to work on it before u can grant me all these. i wud.. i wud.. insya Allah

well, it's hard to adjust myself by relying on my hubby solely. it's unfair.. im sorry dear. i knew that u've been working ur ass hard just to feed both of us. tq for taking care our bills and even to fulfill my desire when im not in the position to beg pun. sian u... im grateful to the Almighty for His kindness. im really thankful...

things been changed since papa left. its hard to write it down. but yes.. since papa left things were never the same again. so many things have to be changed. im adjusting to it and trying to adapt as much as i cud. but there were times when u just wanna breakdown and cry. but one i know for sure, papa memang dah tiada. Allah lebih menyayanginya...

the last moment that i spent wit beloved papa. this was taken the night he said goodbye. May he rest in Jannah. amin..

who am i to question the Almighty decision? Sedangkan yang Maha Pemurah itu telah pun meminjamkan i his creature utk kebahagian i selama ni. Daripada Allah kita datang dan kepada Dia juga kita kembali. Redha is the words. Percaya pada qada' dan qadar, rukun iman yg harus dipegang.

At this point of life, im once again grateful to Yg Maha Esa for giving me the best things in life. My hubby, my pillar of strength. who've been there thru thick and thin. how do i ever pay u b? im officially indebted to u. love u...

Friday, February 6, 2009

here and there

there's sooooo many things happened for the past few days. but all that doesn't concerns my life pun. esp.political scenario at perak. as someone who was brought up in perak half of my life, i guess it does gives small impacts to my life. the changing of new admin for state... im x sure it's d best or even worst. but as far as im concerned DYMM Seri Paduka Sultan Perak dah pun bertitah.. so.. to Mr.Nizar, ur refusal to resign, im x sure whether it's matter or x anymore. i guess, once DYMM had directed to do so, just fully obliged jelah.. some might agree,some might not. but i guess our DYMM Sultan Perak bukan calang2 org yg bertitah.. ex-chief judges... anyone to dispute his words????

well, i wish best of luck to new perak govt. biar telus, jujur and amanah. ingat, big position comes with big responsibilities. All the best again!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

im back...

yes.. im back.. with new spirit and determination!!!!! yeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaa