Wednesday, June 3, 2009

C'est la vie

after a great weekend, somehow my world start to turn me down. after too much anticipation, it aint coming... it just never there. never...

ive been holding back.. but it aint easy. holding your tears was never easy. at least not to me. yup.. mum used to tell me that im a one drama queen. but i guess i know from whom i inherited it. and it must be u mum.

arghhh.. not only i have to bear the emptiness, the pain has just set in. seriously i hopes this wud only last for few days. to endure more pain is so unbearable.

the mixed feelings in me just killed me. coz its not easy, its never easy! trying to calm yourself and in the same time trying to deal with the pain, darn, that's hard!

Thank god, there's Humairah.. the lil angel.. who make me laugh.. who make me smile... tq Dib and Ahtan for your kindness in sharing her with the world. You guys just make someone's world feel brighter. I owe u for your kindness. Thank you so much!




but as i hold this words close to my heart, the Merciful Allah knows better... I verily belief He has better things for me. Patience is a virtue. Would it be there or not, is purely not within my power. It may take days, months or years but as hubby said, we shud never ever turn ourself down. The law of attractions is there. +ve vibes invite +ve outcome. Need to switch this kacau mental to normal setting again.. sigh...

And yes B, i thank you for being there, 24-7. I heart u with every beat of my heart.

And please sun keep on shining and yes sea please always rush to shore... for that is life...

5 comments:

biqque said...

aku dah tiga ari tak sedap hati deb...tak masak...tak ckp ngan laki aku sgt...termanggu je...sigh...tatau nape...jiwa kacau la...

dibitz said...

there will be times we feel hopeless and depressed... when God finally turns to you and grant your wishes, you will appreciate more of everything... there must be a reason for everything... just enjoy the moment and have faith that God is listening, and never stop asking from Him, He loves it. He knows what's best for everyone.. insyaAllah...

aku ni takde la alim nak ckp apa2.. just helping you keep the spirit up. jom swimming!

dibitz said...

badigol la u make me wanna cry!! ahahahaha....

elysuhaili said...

simpati aku kat ko.. (aku xreti spiking jadik aku tulih bahse melayu aje). aku paham perasaan org depress sbb aku baru aje lps depress.. aku harap ko dpt la harung depress ko nih sbb kalu aku jadik ko pon aku depress.. hoi byk nye perkataan depress.. hishh bgtau mak ko.. aku pon drama queen gak.. nk ko tahu.. aku juga ade disisi bile diperlukan..

debyG! said...

dear frenz whom i cherish so much..

i thank u for ur kind words. it does soothe this pain a bit.

biq- i know how u felt. hey.. we got each other aight? that's what's frenz r for... let's not let this tear us down. as much as we suffered, our hubby felt the same. it's unfair for us to do this to them. this affects them too. so gurl.. do ur kinky thing! make his world crazy... enjoy every minutes of it! :)

dib- every words of yours is true.
just spot on.. walau hang x halim.. eh alim..it means a lot. thank you dear..

skin - anor drama queen wont hurt. thank you soooooooo much. aku nak buang perkataan depress tu jauh2.. jauh.. sampai sungai ganges! hahahaa.. tq frenz!